Hi Dad Sorry I haven't been on here for a while. Don't think it's because I haven't been thinking of you because that couldn't be further from the truth. I'm struggling again, every day is so painful, can't stop the tears from coming, doesn't matter where I am, on the bus stop, in Tesco, they just pour regardless. I'm going to name our house Butterfly House in your memory, you wouldn't believe the amount of butterfly things we have in there, well yes you probably would cos you know how obsessive I can get with things that mean a lot to me. I am never ever gonna get over losing you, a piece of me died with you that day. You were my best friend Pops, I could go to you about anything and always know you would be there for me and give me a hug and tell me you love me. Anyway i've waffled on enough for now. The kids all miss you and love you loads and so do I, please never forget that. Love you loads and loads xxxxxxxxxx